The Enforced Be-Like-God God Complex/Fetish/Kink/Hangup/Obsession/Daydream/Delusion/Illusion/Craving/Overcompensation/Need/Desire/Interest/Goal/Mandate/Rule

 People need to stop trying to-- and ordering others to try to-- be or act like God.

God doesn't want us to literally try to be literally perfect, or to try to be someone else, or to lose/forget/break/squash/hide/come to hate ourselves trying to do anything.

"Trying to be like God" sets us up to think we're going to hell if we don't, or if we do or don't do whatever, or at all... and then to torture ourselves and others by and in the process of thinking and acting on that.

The idea of doing everything everywhere all at once or else you're bot doing enough or trying hard enough and need to feel guilty or ashamed is of the same type of school of thought. That kind of "please God" mentality is really just a "please everyone" mentality, or a "torture yourself trying to please everyone other than yourself" mentality, a "please your parents" mentality, a "please your teachers and parents and clergy and really everyone and anyone who is in a perceived positon of authority or popularity" mentality. Really, it's a "please anyone who wields power or perceived power over you" mentality. An "only the self-appointed or voted-in leader has the right to have feelings and needs" mentality. An often deliberately-isolating "No one will love you or like you or leave you alone unless you conform to this" mentality. 

One ends up pleasing no one with that mentality... themself included. And then when everything they touch turns to shit because they tried too hard to please everyone everywhere all at once, they believe they are and have and do nothing good or nothing at all, and so then they swallow five bottles of pills to "do the world a favor" and "take out their trash for them" because those people they tried so hard to please-- mostly whoever originally put it in their head and whoever else kept hammering it in-- had them believing that they have nowhere to go after all this, that no one else is in their boat, that no one will like them because of whatever dreadful mistake they think they made, that they are so utterly alone and so universally despised (or that they would be once anyone got to know them).

But ironically, one thing they don't want us to do "like God" is know the truth about certain things... including often the real answers for the main things. The point of it all. The golden rule.

THEY certainly aren't following the golden rule. Not really, not actually, not truthfully. A lot of them have brainwashed themselves into believing "Oh yes, I do treat others the way I want to be treated, because I would want to be disciplined harshly too to help me do my best." Or they say "If I was like that I want you to treat me like that, but I'm not like that, I'm better than that, so I'm safe." Where do I even begin?? The above that I described is not discipline; it's expecting the literal impossible from people. And how is treating others as inferior to you treating them the way you would want to be treated? 

They have lost the plot so badly that I feel terrible for them. Whatever quality of life they have with that attitude will not be able to sustain itself.

That is not God. It's toxic. It's people telling us we'll go to hell, or to jail, or whatever, if we question that THEY are God. Or that THEIR desires or agenda is the only thing and the main thing God wants. How DARE we even hint that perhaps, just perhaps, what THEY say isn't quoting God at all, but instead quoting another human who benefits materially or socially or even emotionally in some sick way from having others believe that some people are inherently or permanently inferior to others. 

God doesn't ban anyone from thinking or questioning. Or from trusting themself or their intuition... their logic and observation.

No one is going to hell for asking why it supposedly is that we supposedly only get one chance and that if we don't get it perfect the first time then it's a failing grade forever with the resulting punishment of a torturous prison sentence that lasts forever... not even any further chances to fix it, improve it, try again, do it differently, or avoid it next time.

Somehow, they want us to believe that God is perfect yet that that "perfection" somehow incudes God being so insecure and incapable that God would "create us" flawed and then blame and punish US for his mistake of "creating" us flawed. And that God is somehow not powerful enough to know how to ask us if we need God's help understanding things so that we'd eventually choose better ways and be saved as soon as possible as a result. 

Don't these people ever think that maybe God is more powerful than that? That God therefore doesn't have to make us utterly meaningless or powerless, because he's not an insecure prick? That God doesn't need to play games like sacrificing one person for another, or blaming or scapegoating anyone?

Oh, I forgot. How very silly of me. I forgot that they aren't ALLOWED to think any of that. If they do, they'll go to hell. And oh, I'm so very sorry, I forgot that me saying this will destroy others' souls and allow them to start thinking about it, which means I'm responsible for them going to hell!!

Questioning and allowing people to question is love... questioning isn't hate speech or blasphemy.

God doesn't torture anyone. Not for "love" or "to save them" or "to save that more worthy one over there" or "to save that larger group over there." Not for any other reason.

This is much of my mother's fear-based attitude that quite frankly is the bulk of what ruined her life and was a big part of sabotaging mine for a long time. 

The attitude of "You only get one chance so you need to be perfect." This attitude of hers spilled over into all things in her life and in how she treated me when she attempted/pretended to raise me. It wasn't even just "Be perfect or you'll go to hell" any more... it inevitably seeped into all levels of her words, thoughts, emotions and actions... including her interactions with me. Much of it was either nonverbal, or implied with more subtle verbal language rather than said directly. She didn't reaise me on love-- love is unconditional and unnegotiable... she raised me on anxiety, and on depression (a lot of being called a hopeless case or being threatened with the idea of being one if I did this or didn't do that or just in general).

It was now "If you don't go to university now now NOW then you'll never go ever in your life," "If you don't pass the course the first time, then you've failed in school in general and will die on the streets as a homeless dropout," "If you don't get a high high high score on that homework assignment then you have cheated yourself out of a valuable opportunity to succeed," "If you don't stop breaking your back then that means you're a slacker in general," "A slacker now is a slacker forever, because once you make a mistake then it becomes your whole identity and for the rest of your life," "If you go out and get lost for ten minutes then it's not safe to let you out again," "If you break a dish then you shouldn't ever be allowed to wash the dishes again," "You can't walk around! Sit down! What if you stub your toe! If you bump into something, then it's all over for you!" "I'm disappointed in you! Mistakes mean you're not trying your best! You can and should be doing better!" (Like SHE never made mistakes, or like she as the only one allowed to, or I was the only one not allowed to, or something like that. She apparently never heard the phrase "Banning mistakes is the biggest mistake of all.") "Mistakes are for losers who don't learn! People who learn don't make mistakes!" (Um...) Sadly, I'm not exaggerating by much.

She is someone who had (and probably still has) lost the plot so utterly fully and completely that I feel sorry for her. She sees the golden rule as subjective commentary and just a bunch of feel-good buzzwords, and sees more specific subjective situation-specific malleable commentary as the main point... and that is why people like her and a lot of similar people get so worked up and hysterical over supposedly tiny or irrelevant or unusual or obscure things... to the point of having a literal screaming, crying breakdown over problems that have quick fixes... and often trying to pin the blame for it on others, a la "You ruined my Christmas Day by putting too much milk in the potatoes and now they're too watery." (This was a real one from her, in 2014. I quickly fixed the situation by boiling away the extra water in a matter of five minutes, but the "damage" was done according to her.)

It was around that same time that she said to me, sounding depressed and looking for someone to blame for it, talking about a small thing that wasn't even negative or a mistake, "You haven't made many mistakes in your life, but the ones you did make are big ones."

I wish I had retorted, "And whose fault is THAT?"